To all who feel the name Mama is written on your heart, but have yet to hear it from the mouth of a child...
I am here for you. I know your pain. It is real and times like this it is raw. I have been where you are and I am trying my best daily to be thankful to God for guiding me through that valley. I believe that God will use that love in your heart for His glory. The hard part is that it will be on His terms in His time. I had to surrender to my belief in that and it was hard. I came to the realization that I might not conceive a child solely based on the fact that I was at the point in my life and my marriage that I believed I was ready. I also prayed and prayed about adoption, but I was not getting the answers I wanted there either. For me the crest of it all was deciding that if I was never called Mama on this side of Heaven I could be okay, I could live, I could have worth, I could love on all the children that God put in my path in whatever way He saw fit. Even if I lived a barren life on Earth I believe that when I arrived in Heaven they would have to make more room in my tent for all of the children of God that I have loved, impacted, cherished, believed in, and prayed for.
Just know that I am praying hard for you! I pray that you will get your miracle! I pray that you will hear that sweet little voice someday soon calling out to you the name that has been written on your heart all along...Mama!
Love and prayers,
Brandi
